Dear Lola, You Failed Me Today

AAHHH i messed up so bad today at the preformance ahhh

on the outside i was all:

but on the inside i was all:

cause i got really confused

(lola's my guitar by the way)

im so scrrrd... but I AM going to make friends

Tomarrow I have to preform with my INdie Band and im really scared. Im gonna be all:

hehe not really

so im going to make friends with some people tomarrow if it kills me,because i think i need to step out side of my "shell"

AHHH i hate my scanner

it cut off the word on the side. Arrrg

?Te Gusta Salir?

Yesterday my Espanol teacher told us how to ask someone out in spanish and how to reject them (but i dont remember how to say that).

Today one of my friends got caught smoking in the PE locker room, but i dont know exactly what happened because i was in the girls locker room not the boyz.

In acctual PE i was talking to this one girl and she told he her granma was native american and her name was Mountain Snow.

im currently IMing Jamie she makes me laugh ha ha

Today i found that taco bell does not taste good when listening to Kate Nash.

Still IMing Jamie and were having a disscusion about the boyz at my school

My Favorite Books

I dont really know what to write tonight.

So I thought I would list my favorite books and tell you why i like them.



-Whatever Happened to Lani Garver
it makes me want to be a better person

-The Perks of being a Wallflower
it is really about nothing and everything at the same time

-Get Well Soon
i dont think i will ever be in a mental institution, but if i was i would want it to be like this

-The Maximum Ride series
it makes me want to grow wings and fly away

- Twilight saga
yeah, i know over half of America claims that those are their favorite books. But i'm not a diehard fan and i read those books befre they were famous and i think that if you read them now you would just become consumed with fact that it is just such a bg deal.

-Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist
I like the way it is not a normal romance and the way the authors incorperated underground music.

-A Walk To Remember
it is simple one of the sweetest books i've ever read

-After
it scares me because it is completely realistic

-Pretties, Uglies, Specials, Extras (each different books in the same series)
it kind of reminds me of Maximum ride because of its strong main female charactor. But the story lines are quite different. These books get my thoughts moving in the darkest of ways.


srry i didn't put the authors i didnt really feel like looking them up because its not like anyone reads this besides jamie and amanda

and if you are not one of those special people these books are popular and im sure if you looked up the title you would find the author easily

not walking or singing in the rain today

Today i got free pizza and soda cuz im a nerd and i went to school everyday... and i just had a weird thought that since no one is going to read this cuz im lame its kind of like writing in a jounal or diary, witch is something i said i would never do again. im not sure if im comfortable with that. In PE class today me and some other special people played vollyball by a trash can and the ball went in the trach can and got a lot of unsanitary stuff on it and we would touch it, but then we did cause one of the girls wiped the ball on the wall. It rained today and i love that expect for the fact that my school doesnt really tell us were to go or what to do and i dont think they really even care. And i got in trouble for getting a ride from school because i didn't want to walk in the rain.

Compatibility Test

Tomarrow at my school we all have to take a Compatibility Test to see who your most compatible with. It is supposed to be really fun and everyone can laugh about it and be all "haha we got each other, hey why don't we go to sadie's together" But what if got paired with a gender that you didn't want to be with ( I'm not gay by the way) I really dont think our school would ask your sexual preference and i think that they should cause that is discrimination. And another thing about the weirdness of it all would be like if you were already going out with someone and you got another person then you would be like "ohhh were not going to be together, let's just break up now and get it over with." And if it doesnt fit those situations, then it is just going to be really awquared with the person from then on cause it like "well it said we should be together, but ewwww" anyway i think that this test is kind of wrong and shouldn't be taken.